When you make the decision to work toward a particular goal, dream, or desired outcome, it can often happen that everything falls apart around you and you end up feeling trapped or stuck in undesirable conditions, all the while wondering what in the world you did to deserve so much contrast (especially if it comes after you chose to better yourself or overcome an addiction). Those thoughts won’t help you, although this can be interesting to realize while you’re in the midst of the chaos and anxiously awaiting the calm.
It can be difficult to maintain compassion for “normal” or “regular” people when it feels like they are purposely remaining ignorant within the matrix, almost as if they are blatantly refusing to lift the veil for themselves. This can be frustrating, to say the least, especially if you’re in the emotional purging process of awakening, which brings with it a need to clear your chakras, set boundaries, and fully express yourself from a soul level. However, you cannot force an awakening on anyone else—although you can help if you choose to and they are ready, which they may or may not even realize they are—and if you’re feeling frustrated with people in general, this is a good indicator that you may be trying too hard to “make” them see your newly awakened perspective. Unfortunately, this is more likely to drive wedges between you than bring you together, and when you first begin waking up, it’s pretty common to get angry about the state of the world and the humans within it, especially when you begin to learn about just how deep the corruption runs. Like everything else, though, it is your responsibility to move past this type of thinking and adjust your attitude toward your fellow human beings to understanding rather than judgment. This is one of your ego’s efforts to keep its hold on your consciousness, and unfortunately it can have you behaving in ways that can come across as arrogant and closed-minded, which is not what a spiritual awakening is about.
Loneliness is a common emotional state when you’re going through a spiritual awakening, simply because you start feeling like all of the work you’re doing and breakthroughs you’re having are minimized by the still-unconscious people around you. It feels very alone, like no one cares about your progress, and like you’re facing this massive, uncertain shift all by yourself, without even so much as a friend to talk about it with in many cases. Small talk, conversations about money and the crap people buy, and pretty much all other everyday topics stop being interesting to you. You feel the need to dive much deeper, and the people in your immediate vicinity may or may not be capable of joining you at that depth. Even if they are capable, they may not want to simply because it forces them to take a closer look at their own lives, habits, and perceived flaws in an indirect way. Most unconscious people are not ready for this, which can make things very uncomfortable and further compound your sense of loneliness and abandonment.
Inspiration can be a fickle and indecisive lover. She never seems to want to grace you with her presence when you have the time to give her your undivided attention, but the second you’re driving or in the shower, she wants to come out and play. You feel amazing, keeping the idea in mind and allowing your thoughts to run with it with some limitations due to your circumstances and vowing you’ll write this idea down the moment you have access to a pen and paper or can focus on your phone without crashing your vehicle. Without fail, you’ll be determined and convinced that you’ll remember, but when the pen and paper appear in front of you, the idea is nowhere to be found. You rack your brain frantically only to come up empty. What if I told you that you could tap into inspiration any time you choose to because inspiration comes directly from your inner being or soul, and what you’re tapping into is really Source energy? Let’s explore this concept of inspiration more fully and cover a few ideas for getting inspired on purpose, anytime you want to, by aligning yourself with the vibrational frequency of inspiration.
It is only when we begin to understand that our inner world creates our outer world that we can truly allow ourselves to take full responsibility for our lives as a whole. Why is this? It is my opinion, as seen through the lens of my current knowledge and understanding, that we are fearful of taking this level of responsibility on a very deep, subconsciously conditioned level because we realize -- consciously or unconsciously -- that we must then face ALL of our dark inner shadows and deeply rooted belief systems that do not originate from our true selves: our souls. This means that we must learn to accept and love ourselves completely, on all levels, and unconditionally, which includes those parts of us that we may label as, "bad," or, "negative." After continuous learning and research into this particular flavor of topics, I have come to understand this idea on a deeper level. Where at first I thought that this meant digging up and rehashing old mistakes, regrets, and difficult experiences to feel the pain again and then try to let go of it, the actual meaning of this is far deeper than that, and I'm certain I will uncover deeper meanings still as this awakening process continues.
When I was younger, I had an incredibly spiritual experience after consuming an entire bottle of Robitussin (I do NOT recommend this, btw... it was extremely overwhelming and strange and unbalanced overall). As I fell asleep, my dreams in my subconscious mind continued to be influenced by this substance, though most of it had worn off already. Here's what happened.
We hear, see, and read a lot about mindfulness and inner work these days. But, if you're anything like me, then it might take you a few years to peel back some of the layers of epiphany that seem to be in the way of your personal progress within this lifetime. To anyone who is too anchored in the 3D timespace reality that is our physical world, this will all sound crazy and way too out there. However, once you've begun your journey down into this rabbit hole (i.e. into your own inner landscape), more and more truth and inner knowing (some call this #faith, but it's so much more than that) is revealed as we re-learn (remember) who we truly are at our core: a soul, pure energy. The terminology used here is simply for clarification purposes and accuracy, not necessarily to give the impression that it's exclusive (it isn't; anyone can work on themselves if they so choose) or that it's some mystical, magical thing. It is, truly... but not in the ways that you might think. Let me break it down for you in practical, no bullshit terms... classic Jen style ;). (Click to read more.)
Spiritual insights learned through experience, emotional alchemy, and the path to freedom on all levels through practical application of inner work.